I'll Give You My Soul

It's only in the last two years that I've realised that the thing I really want to do, the thing that's almost constantly on my mind, is painting.

I have a degree, of sorts, in multimedia design. But apart from the aspects of it that involve Photosop, it's not really, really, my thing. All the programming is crap. For me anyway, cause I suck at it. So it's going to be quite difficult to find a job as a multimedia designer that doesn't involve any kind of programming. That sucks.

But it's good too, cause it's not what I want to do.

I want to paint. And I want other people to paint. Or draw. Or something else creative. And I want to teach those people who don't any of those things, how to do it. If they tell me they can't, well, that's just bunk! Everyone can draw! Everyone has a creative side. You just have to use it!

But I have no clue how to make this happen. I have no formal education in working with art - or teaching it, for that matter. And that's pretty much essential, to get a job in that field here. especially if you have nothing else to show for: exhibitions, for example. Which I haven't either.

I did study art history at university for a year (I studied Italian too, but I didn't finish it), but I dropped out of that, cause it was too much theory and too little fingerpaint! Dropping out of that was really disheartening for me. It made me feel like a looser. So it was cool that I was actually able to complete the multimedia design course. I had achieved something!

Alas, it's not something that I want. And I'm crap at it, anyway.

I like to think that I'm not crap at painting, or being creative, or sitting on my butt looking out through the window while I get inspiration for my next painting. But how the fuck do I convince other people to give me money for painting and/or teaching others the joy of being creative??

Tell me that, please, and I'll be forever in your debt. If you can tell me a quick and easy way to do it, I'll give you my soul.

Thursday, July 22, 2004 posted by Wardi @ 5:54 PM